mental sanity

i need to maintain mine.

i've tried not to write about work on here much (helpful that i don't write on here much in general these days then - lol), but for the 2-3 that read this (and aren't my family) i figured i would do a vague work update.

things aren't going so great. i'll be honest in that i live for the weekends at the moment.
it's no way to live. it's not good for the soul. i feel my passion and excitement slipping away slowly. it's just not fostered and encouraged. there is only so much fight a person has in them.

there are good moments with the children that i try and hold onto, to keep moving me forward. But do you ever have it where the bad just seems to outweigh the good at times?

with that being said, i know there is some soul searching to be done. the thing is actually making myself sit down and actually face what this layered issue is and what it is doing to me. sometimes it's just easier to avoid doing that and busy myself with other things.

so yeah, not so much of an upbeat, here's how awesome and fun and amazing it is to live in London post. unfortunately, i'm not just here on holiday. i work.

good news though, i think i've settled on a church. it seems quite good, young, socially active in London, etc. oh, and they love jesus.