sick

my rubbish bin overflows with used tissues.
i need to find where the off switch is for my nose
because that overflowth as well.

goodbye sunshine

it's official, in my book at least, that summer is no more.

the weather is being a bit schizophrenic though. on the very same day it would be unbearable to go outside without a coat and then piping hot to wear same said coat. oh won't it make up it's mind?

i should enjoy whatever lingering warmth there is about.

soon i may end up freezing in the forthcoming winter. it is a very good thing that i will be going to florida for a month over christmas. already dreaming about my favourite time of year weather-wise in south florida :)

i just realized that i wrote an entire post about "the weather." did i just turn 80?

"soul"journing

my aunt convinced me to purchase rail tickets and get out of london.
so, i'm heading up to lovely scarborough this afternoon. afterall, it's a bank holiday weekend.
get in some family time. celebrate birthdays galore. have lots of laughter. seriously, lots of laughter.
this will be good for my soul i think.
it will be cold for my body though.

i mean, it's getting cool in london. i can only imagine what the temps are in north yorkshire. the leg warmers might get to make a reappearance ;)
(i'm such a florida wimp)

well my lovelies, enjoy the last few moments of summer. autumn is drawing near.

mental sanity

i need to maintain mine.

i've tried not to write about work on here much (helpful that i don't write on here much in general these days then - lol), but for the 2-3 that read this (and aren't my family) i figured i would do a vague work update.

things aren't going so great. i'll be honest in that i live for the weekends at the moment.
it's no way to live. it's not good for the soul. i feel my passion and excitement slipping away slowly. it's just not fostered and encouraged. there is only so much fight a person has in them.

there are good moments with the children that i try and hold onto, to keep moving me forward. But do you ever have it where the bad just seems to outweigh the good at times?

with that being said, i know there is some soul searching to be done. the thing is actually making myself sit down and actually face what this layered issue is and what it is doing to me. sometimes it's just easier to avoid doing that and busy myself with other things.

so yeah, not so much of an upbeat, here's how awesome and fun and amazing it is to live in London post. unfortunately, i'm not just here on holiday. i work.

good news though, i think i've settled on a church. it seems quite good, young, socially active in London, etc. oh, and they love jesus.

note to self:

If I never ever want to even think about going on a date again in my entire life, then buy one of these.


Since I still want to be open to the possibility, I think I shall refrain for the time being.

06 july 09 evensong - westminster abbey

o gracious and holy Father,
give us wisdom to perceive thee,
diligence to seek thee,
patience to wait for thee,
eyes to behold thee,
a heart to meditate on thee,
and a life to proclaim thee,
through the power of the spirit
of Jesus Christ our Lord.

-st. benedict
c. 480-547

aubrey = mommy

i'd like to point out that one of my dear friends, aubs, is gonna to be a momma like super soon. it should be this weekend (if not already!). july 4th is D day.

who would have thought, that back in 2005, when this beautiful girl entered my life she would be a momma in just under 4 years times? she certainly wouldn't have ever ;) i always deep down was just waiting for the when though.

it makes me so excited to remember that this little bundle of joy is going to be in the world soon, separate from her. bj and aubs are going to great parents to silas. he'll be spoiled for love :)
come quickly baby silas - the world is ready to meet you!